“Inmate, come here.” CO Rivera knocked on the jail cell door. “You ready to talk?”
“Sure.” Nate stood up from the metal bench inside the cell and rolled his shoulders back counter-clockwise. “I’ll do whatever needs to be done. My family is missing me.”
“I didn’t ask about any of that, so don’t try to sell me any aww-boo-hoo bullshit.” CO Rivera opened the door. “You gon’ learn today.”
This guy. I have a bad gut feeling. Nate put his hand on his stomach, feeling it growl from hunger. Maybe I’m just starving. I can’t remember the last time I ate.
Rivera hardened his brow showing dominance. “Medina, huh? You some kind of Asian or Indian or what?”
Nate scoffed. “It’s a Spanish surname. You should know better, asshole.”
“I’m not here to play trivia games, you smug little shithead.” Rivera grinned. “I know of one Officer Miguel Fernandez who wants to see you put in here for good.”
Fuck. He’s not going to let me go. . . he’s toying with me. Nate clenched his teeth and balled his fist. Maybe there’s only one way out of this.
I no longer have Lindzey to hold onto. . . Jessika is gone. There’s nothing left here in the world. I hit rock bottom, there’s no worse hell-hole than this.
These inmates are yelling at the top of their lungs, banging on the doors and windows.
This is a riot, I am in the midst of it. With no clock or phone in sight, I have no semblance of time here.
Gross is not a strong enough word to describe the disgusting, nauseating floor I have to sit on. There is vomit, piss, fungus…
Nothing left. Nothing left to lose…maybe I should kill myself.“Calm yourself, Nate. Suicide? What kind of talk is that?”
A voice resonated in Nate’s head.
It’s reality speaking. Wait… is there a voice in my head?
I thought I heard something.
The faint voice spoke to Nate once again.
“Never give up. Never surrender.
You are built to last through this.”
Am I? Or will I die here? If I die here, I die with honor, at least.
I can say I died fighting for what I believe in. When my family mourns me, they know I died pushing forward.
“Will they?
Or maybe they will see the decayed body of a loser who decided to give up.”Fine. I’ll push through it. Then what?
Where do I go? What do I do?
I have nothing. Nothing to…
“That is what you tell yourself,
loser.”
Hah. So I should just be confident.I should hold my head high with a big, huge smile!
Just because.
“Why not?”
Why not? Because… all of this…
“You really want to go through this again?
Decide to live, or die.
It is that simple.I decide…
To live.[{TW=≠=AH}]
Passed out from hunger, anxiety, and exhaustion, the imprisoned male sat still until the return of his captor. Unknowing if night had become day or dawn had become dusk once more, he could see the shadow of the prison guard approaching his cell. At last, the cell door opened with a slow creak, like a rusted gate not opened for a thousand years.
CO Rivera threw some paper forms at Nate. “Looks like you’ve got someone bailing you out here. Nick Medina. Is that your father, brother, or. . .?”
Nate woke up from his fever dream alone in the jail cell. No sight of his cell mates from the previous night. He did not care about their circumstances, since the CO in front of him had told him something he found incredible.
“Nick? My dad? My pops? H-He’s here?” The hairs on Nate’s arms stood up, a notable symptom of high anxiety. “It can’t be my dad, I mean, I haven’t heard from him in years, there’s no way. He was lost, and—“
“I thought I told you before that I don’t need to hear your family story, shithead. Get moving.” Rivera said, leading Nate down the psych ward hallway into the reception area.
“Shithead? Really?” Nate wanted to punch the guard.
“Does that hurt your feelings?” Rivera pressed Nate’s chest with his index finger. “You got a bleeding heart right there, don’t you? Shithead millennial.”
Nate responded. “Typical. You’re Puerto Rican, aren’t you? You trashy fucks bring disgrace to our culture.”
Rivera laughed. “Light skin gringo faggot! Vamos, bicho cabron.
“A felon telling me that I’m a disgrace? You are backwards, bicho.
“I better not see you here again.”
I’m never coming back. That’s something I can tell myself. Who knows if these assholes will leave me alone, Nate thought as he collected his phone, wallet, and keys. Now, his only wish was to get through the door to the outside.
Midnight sky covered the empty parking lot when Nate crossed the concrete beneath him, now a free man.
Darkness is liberating, he repeated to himself as he hunched over a pay phone.
[{TW=≠=AH}]
Footsteps came from behind. Nick Medina put his hand on Nate’s shoulder. This single touch felt like a captured moment they experienced a hundred times in the past.
“Dad? It’s really you. I can’t believe you made it all the way here.” Nate looked at his father, seeing a reflection of himself which knew all the torment he endured.
“Not just me, buddy. Brought you a surprise.” Nick waved to Jessika.
“Hey!” Jessika said as she jumped out of Nick’s truck. She wore a flannel long-sleeve shirt with leggings and boots. It was the exact Jessika that Nate remembered from many years ago.
“Good to see you in one piece, Bro-seph.”
“Jess? You’re here. You’re alive! I can’t believe it!” Nate ran to her, hugged her, squeezing her with both arms.
“Ahh! I’m alive, dude! Let me go!” Jess laughed, gasping for air.
“I guess we can talk about what happened when we get home,” Nick said.
“Home? Are you serious?” Nate looked at his father. “I haven’t seen you in fucking forever, man. The last time I remember seeing your face, it was on PIA Most Wanted. Where have you been?!”
“That’s in the past. I guess I should, uh—” Nick looked at Jessika. “JK darling, can you give me and your brother a minute? We need a little man to man talk, you know, um—“
“Oh. Yeah, fine. I’ll give you guys some space,” Jessika smiled reluctantly. She skipped back to her father’s truck and sat in the passenger’s seat.
Now by themselves, the estranged father and son examined each other. What memories they had of their past, now contrast with the present.
“Noah told me what happened,” Nick said. “I’m sorry I wasn’t there to help you guys. Lin and Lex, JK and you.”
“JK is probably texting up a storm right now. I need to talk to you, Dad. Let’s go take a walk,” Nate breathed the fresh air of freedom. “Just a five minute walk and talk. Like the old days.”
Nick smiled to his son. “Of course.”
Two men who walk war-torn paths now move together, shoulder-to-shoulder.
“Lindzey dumped me. I tried to call her. She doesn’t answer. I don’t think she’s going to answer. I want to yell at the voicemail, but I hang up every time. I just choke. It’s like I can’t find the strength to say to her, um—”
Nick groaned. “She’s not going to pick up the phone. So you need to let her go. You need to go find something new.”
“You don’t get it! She is the only person who saw all those reptilians and those fucking crazy motherfuckers who—“
“Enough.” Nick stood behind Nate, placing both of his hands on his son’s shoulders with a firm hold. “Let it go. It’s over. You have to let that shit go. You have more important things in your life. Your sister, your mother, your friends!”
Nate blinked. “Mother? She’s here?”
“Yes. She’s back home. You can go live with her and JK. Rebuild it all. Make it something true. True to you, and to JK, and everyone. The Medinas will be a proud family again.”
“I would. I just can’t, though,” Nate said. “I can’t leave it like this. I can’t rest until it’s all done.”
Wind blew Nate’s hair over his face. He parted it to the side, giving his father a serious expression of conviction.
“It’s not worth it to ditch your family. Believe me,” Nick said. “If I could do it all again, I would have stayed with you guys. That’s what you need to do.”
Nate groaned. “It’s not that simple. I’ve been trying to find answers, and in doing so I’ve put myself on a mission. The mission’s not over yet. Don’t you get it?”
“What I don’t get is what you are trying to accomplish. You haven’t told me what questions you’re trying to answer. I don’t get it. This mission, these answers, it’s not worth losing your family over. Believe me.”
“I could say the same thing to you, Dad.”
“Ugh.” Nick’s face crumbled. “This isn’t the like-father-like-son dialogue I wanted, but you’re right. I can tell you that you’re right. You know you are.”
“No one else believes me. I lost everything. The love of my life ghosted me with a stupid letter! A fucking Dear John letter, man! Her father was the one who fucked everything up, and now I have to look like a jackass.
“You don’t care, though. Fucking old people. You got your time in the sun now you are ready to burn everything up behind you.” Nate said, spitting phlegm on the street, yelling into the nothingness of midnight.
“That’s cool. Get it out of your system, buddy. My mom said to me the same thing every time my dad whipped my ass. Las cosas solo pueden ir mejor. That was her motto.”
“Bullshit motto. I keep getting thrown in fucking concrete cells. You have a lot of nerve telling me I should be more optimistic, old man.”
Headlights appeared in the dark parking lot. An armored jeep pulled up next to the two men, cutting a deliberate break into their conversation..
Nick covered his eyes, sighing. “So they’ve come. Didn’t think it’d be so soon,”
“So? What’s the deal?” Nate tensed up. “If someone’s out to get you, I’ll stop them.”
“I’ve had a bounty on my head for years. That’s why. . .”
“Dad, I know! I told you I saw the PIA’s most wanted list. You and Noah, and Zerj, and Rich. You’re being hunted.
“Your head is worth more money than I’ve had in my entire life.”
Nick turned away in shame. “You don’t have to turn me in. I’m giving myself up.”
“Why? So you can be pampered by the feds, leaving me with nothing?” Nate pressed his chest against his father’s.
The headlights turned off as the jeep’s engine stopped. Two bounty hunters came out of the jeep, seemingly unarmed.
“Wait a second. These guys aren’t bounty hunters.” Nate’s tension eased as he identified them. “Marven! Gary! You scared us shitless!”
“Had to see it to believe it,” Gary said. “We saw your mugshot online. You got yourself in some shit again, huh?”
“I’m never not getting myself in shit,” Nate said.
Marven smirked. “Amen to that.”
Nick laughed. “You two hombres look like Michael Jackson and Biggie Smalls. These guys are friends of yours?”
“Is that true?” Nate tensed up once more. “Marven? Tell me the truth, man.”
“We’re newly certified. The PIA guys gave us this gig after the VanHilton case was closed in the Anarchist Game,” Marven said, “We’re not here to take you in or anything. Let’s touch base.”
“We got orders from the association to kill you on sight. Kind of awkward, now. Here we are, seeing you in the flesh, and none of us are shooting at each other,” Gary said.
Nick rolled his eyes, then put his hand on his son’s shoulder. “Nate, how about you go take JK home? And send your mother my love.”
“What are you guys gonna do, then?” Nate asked.
“From what I understand, they’re turning me loose. That means I’m at large,” Nick said, taking a breath of air to calm himself. “You take my keys and get home safely. I’ll come back when I can.”
“Your dad’s good people,” Gary said. “Guess we’re outta here, then.”
Marven nodded. “We’ll hang out sometime, alright?”
“Yeah,” Nate said. He gave them an upward head nod. “Thanks, you guys. Later.”
Gary and Marven got back in their vehicle and drove away, leaving Nick and Nate alone to say their goodbyes.
“I’ll chalk that one up to a miracle. If the association had sent anyone else, we’d be in some trouble,” Nick said.
“Yeah? Well, you know what I say? To hell with them. You think I’m scared?” Nate scowled, gritting his teeth. “You’re scared of them because you’re a coward. You’ve always been a coward. I feel ashamed for looking up to you before.”
“Back to this?” Nick covered his eyes. “Why haven’t you learned?”
“What’s to learn? That hiding is better than fighting? If you think I live my—“
“No. Clearly you don’t. And I can’t force you to do anything now.”
“Damn right.”
Nick threw his arms up and rolled his eyes. “It’s pointless to argue here. One of us has to find Noah and work things out. You and I know it has to be me.”
“Just tell me, old man, what’s your game plan here? Do you have any idea where you’re even going to find Noah Augustine? The man is elusive as they come.”
“The name the PIA facility is through a portal called Heaven’s Gate. While you and those two bounty hunters were talking, I used my phone to place a tracker on their vehicle. I’ll be following them right into the enemy’s fortress.”
“So you’re leaving. Again.” Nate scuffed his feet on the pavement. “I guess it is what it is. Right? That’s how you see it. And I can’t force you to do anything, either.”
Nick put his hands on his son’s shoulders. “I promise. This will work. I will be back soon.”
“You promise, huh? Maybe I believe you this time,” Nate said, reluctant to smile at his father.
“Thanks, Nathaniel. Tell Jessika and your mother I’ll be seeing you all soon.”
Nate nodded, and the two parted ways once more.
Heaven’s Gate. Could’ve sworn that was some kind of cult. Nate continued to deduce his father’s plan. If you think I’m just gonna sit around while you do all the heavy lifting, it’s not gonna happen. I’ll be right behind you every step of the way.